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Monday, December 06, 2010
some times, i really had the urge of telling you how much i miss you......sigh. Sunday, November 07, 2010 Just when i thought that i am fine. One message came by and my heart starts to beat twice as fast. Monday, November 01, 2010 It's been more than a month since me and juan broken up. My emotion has gotten stable compared to the beginning. Having said that, i had removed her from my facebook friend list. Reason for doing so is that i couldn't take it seeing her with another man. Ya, they may not be officially together, but it don't change the fact she is already seeing somebody else not long after we break up. That feelings sucks man. It makes me feel like what we had was nothing that she could just let it off in an instance. Well, of course i am glad she moved on rather than moping for the broken relationship. I should be glad that she has found someone that make her happy isn't it? Yes, i should, but it ain't easy to cope with such feelings. So what is the best thing i can do? Run away from everything. Without knowing it, at least i won't feel hurt and at the same time, she could be happy with who she wanna be with or what she wanna do. So this is how the story of Quan & Juan ends. Ended not very beautifully, but we did once shared something nice. Like holding her hand, dashing thru the rain to look for dim sum shop at china town when we were still good friends. Like how i snatch her kiss while we were at power house during regine's 19th birthday. Me quietly fond of her despite her rejecting me few times. We finally got together after i asked Auntie Janet's permission to date her daughter. How we spent our 2009 xmas and 2010 new year. Like how she plan a day of surprises for me on my 25th birthday. And how we spent her 21st birthday and 1 year anniversary at Tioman, Malaysia. And how we spent 2days 1 night trip at batam. All this will be kept deep inside and sealed with one last love for her. Despite how we behave like strangers now, we once had a beautiful moments together will forever be a fact not fantasy. Even though i still miss her from time to time now, i still stay strong and walk the remaining path of my life without her. I might be still halting at that cross road where we had separated watching her walking away, but i know one day i will turn my head away and walk the opposite direction. All i can say is.... may our path cross again, be it as friends, colleagues or lovers......... Monday, October 04, 2010 Maybe no one is viewing my blog anymore as i did not update for months. Things were great since my last post till 24th Sep 2010. Juan and i broke off. It is painful, even right now after 9 days and 10 nights. Even right now, i still couldn't believe it. I had been an irritating ex, i couldn't let go. I tried to call her, sms her and even went over once to find her in hope to salvage our relationship, but she is determine about it. My actions was irritating, childish and selfish. Is not that i don't respect her decision, is just that i don't want to lose her. She did say we can still be friends, but will it really happen? Maybe months later. Ya, maybe things did changed. Not that we had no more love, but maybe we did spent too much time together. Each time i think about walking a separate ways with her hurts. I do mean each time. I did went out with friends like Eric, his girl and Kirk whenever they are available, but she is still on my mind all the time. I really wish she is still here for me. I regretted what i had done. Well, i can't turn back time... I really wish that i receive a text message from her one day and ask me out. And she would hug me in her arms and tell me how much she misses me. I know that won't happen, she is a strong girl. She will do better than me. I am much weaker compared to her. I have no courage to endure all this, but i am force to. Sometimes, it feels so painful that i feel like giving up. Grab a sharp object and stab it on my chest(i won't do that, just a description). Seriously, it hurts badly this time. Maybe i really did put in the most on her. Even though it did not turn out great, but i did not regret giving her my everything, because i know our 18months together were all real. She did a lot for me too. I'm grateful. If i really have another chance to be with her in the future, i swear i will make things damn right for us this time. I ain't sure if that is gonna happen, but to be honest.....she is really special. Don't think i could find someone equivalent. I love her laughter, i love the way she forced plucking my hairs, i love the way she asked me to carry her to toilet when she is lazy to walk, i love her taking initiatives, i love the way she teases me, i love the way she sleeps, i love the way she asked me for help, i love her clumsiness, i love how she text me in the morning. I just love the way she loved me. "Baby, i know i shouldn't call you that anymore. If you happen to read this post someday, i just wanna tell you that, i have been loving you since the day i started to know you after chatting on MSN. and as silly as it seem, i will carry on to do so, quietly.... Even though we may have someone new in our life, but you are one girl who i really put in the most in chasing you, liking you and loving you. Memories we had will never be forgotten, and if someday somebody were to ask me who you ever loved the most, the answer would be you. Even i don't really wish to leave, but i sincerely bless you in whatever you are doing, and if someday we really happen to fall in love once more, i will make it right and will not let this happen again. I love you baby. One thing that will never change." Tuesday, May 04, 2010 i feel like being in your arms. Wednesday, March 31, 2010 It's not been a very good month for me. First, my result, although i some how expected it, i'm still not very satisfy with it. Accounting - A Java - A Business Excel - A IDEAS - B+ Marketing - C+ Statistic - C+ overall GPA drop from 3.645 to 3.479. Secondly, my passport. I had an upcoming trip next month and so i went online to apply my passport. Normally, it would take 3 working days but as for me; i first apply it on the 10th march and only get hold of my passport(finally) on 29th march. Here's the story. I try to apply via online. The detail required are IC no. , IC issue date and previous passport expiry date. Entered the detail as required and it return with error stating that the passport expiry date is wrong. I double check it and re-entered it, same result. I try again for the 3rd time - same. When i wanna try the 4th time, this time it reply that because i've error for 3 times, i have to wait 24hrs to re-apply. OK, nvm. My trip is at 14th april, i can wait for a day or 2. Next day, try again. SAME! after 3 tries, again tell me need to wait 24hrs. Of course this time i won't wanna wait. I send ICA the error and a screenshot of my passport expiry date. On the 15th march week(forget which day), ICA called and told me that i should enter a expiry date given by them instead(although i don't know why), so i do as told, this time it works, applied and paid and happily expecting the appointment for collection. On the 23rd afternoon, ICA called. They told me i have not submitted my certificate of renunciation aka Form K. from malaysia(which i suppose to do so at 2008) so they cannot release my passport until i do so. The reason i did not submit the form k was not because i'm lazy to go down to ICA, it was because malaysia did not mail me anything with regards on collecting it! I told ICA that malaysia embassy told me that it is still processing but ICA wanted a memo from them if i cannot produce the form K. Immediately after i ended the call with ICA, i call malaysia embassy to check on my form K as the last time i check was roughly half a year ago. That woman took down my details and told me that she will call back after she check; Well, as expected- i did not recieve a call at the end of the day. The next day, i called again. This time a different woman answer, she did the same thing- ask for my details and tell me that she will call back after she check and she did call back after 1hour, but telling me that she could not find my form k(i did my renunciation on 2007, it supposed to be ready within a year, but......this is what i get from them). It was like "what the hell man". She told me she would check through once more and call me back. Waited and Waited, its friday(26th march). I have yet to recieve any calls from them. I'm quite stress up as in less than 3 weeks times i'm leaving Singapore. This time i tried emailing Malaysia embassy and hope for a quick reply but...nothing. On the next monday(29th march). Even though i did not recieve any letter from whoever, i make my way down to malaysia embassy located nearby tiong bahru area. Went over and explain the situation, they gave me a memo to submit to ICA. The memo stated - Please extend to April 2011 etc. Cab down from there to ICA and submit all this nonsense and get my passport, because it only extend the submission date to april 2011, my passport expiry date is only given to april 2011. If malaysia can't produce my form K every year, i would need to repeat this process annually to keep my passport active. At least for now, i have my passport already. My worries are gone. Now i can happily wait for 14th april and have fun there with yijuan for 2 special occasion- which is her 21st birthday and our 1 year anniversary. Talking about us, things isn't going too well for us lately. Maybe i'm too selfish that cause all our arguments, but i don't know. Lately the interval between our quarrels is very short. With additional boost from her slave driving shift work(which is temporary for march and april), I had not manage to spend much time with her at all. With everything that comes in together, i felt very mentally depressed. Especially when there is often last minute delay of our meet ups. Deep in my heart, i know yijuan had did nothing wrong, as work tied her up in the office, she couldn't meet me sooner, i truly understand that; but when it happen too frequently,well.. almost daily, i couldn't help but to make a fuss over it and that's how our quarrels started. She is tired and pressured by work and i'm frustrated. That is how 2 stones create sparks and eventually fire. Some people may think that i shouldn't be so inconsiderate towards my own girl but when you are in this position, i'm sure most of us would lose to our emotions too. I admit that i'm still very glued to my girl. Since our relationship started till this shift work started, we've been meeting almost everyday(99%) without fail. but lately, i couldnt spend my time with her. Most of the time she is stuck in the office and after work, she would be too tired to spend time with me. And she is like working 7days a week. I really miss her and miss the precious time with her. Both of us has spoken out, even though we've been quarreling a lot, we both know that our love is still there and going to work it out. I'm trying hard to avoid pressuring her and try to be more understanding. Just hope things will work out fine and smooth sailing once again after this crisis. I love you baby. Sorry for a bad month i've given to you. I hope this coming April and thereafter will be better for us. Sunday, February 28, 2010 Its been so damn long since i last posted. Am i that busy? I doubt so, ha-ha.. more to lazy than busy. My last post was on 24th November 09, meaning i miss out the whole of December, January and February. Let me summarize them, i don't really remember everything too. December Had my mid-semester test between 7th Dec to 11th Dec, and a short vacation from then to 4th Jan 10'. Well, nothing much happen from 11th to Xmas except for something not very pleasant but anyway it is over. I joined Juan and her secondary school classmates to count down for Xmas at West coast park. I don't remember everything in detail, but i remember we couldn't finish the food.  On Xmas day, Juan had to attend her friend's wedding as she is one of the "Sisters". I went shopping with her for some "stuffs" she and her "sisters" need for the pranks at Plaza Singapura. Went home later on and that's it for my Xmas, LOL! January Went Clarke Quay for 2010 countdown with Juan, Regine + BF, Ying Liang and Claudia. Initially, we had no plan to club but in the end, we still ended up in Rebel. Just about 20mins after 12 mid-night, Claudia K.O. from one cup of Vodka(don't remember what drink, is alcohol can liao). Hahaha!! Ended up we spend the rest of the time by the road and watch a cat fight between 3women and a man. On the same day, we went to my sister's place for swimming and sun tanning.     On 9th Jan, went ECP with Juan, Reub, Shan, Ling, Samuel to celebrate my birthday (even though they didn't say so but i knew it already lah, hahaha.) Met shan+reub first to do some rollerblading. That noob shan really make me laugh lo, roll backward some more, HAHA!!! Noob   Had dinner with them at nearby coffee shop and receive a advance birthday present from them. Best and most practical present and i love it - $100 cash :) Thanks to you guy/girls. On 11th Jan, my class celebrate the Jan babies birthday at food court 6 during our 2hours break, the 4 Jan babies consist of PK(11th Jan), Mei Qi(11th Jan), Yan Ling(15th Jan) and myself(13th Jan).   On 13th, baby took leave to celebrate my birthday. Met her after my class end at 11.30a.m. She surprise me with a bouquet of flower as the first gift, and we took train to orchard.  Baby brought me to a restaurant for lunch at Shaw, the restaurant is call Dong Hai. We ordered hell lot of dishes like it is free, apart from the good food, their service is very good too,i rate 5stars for their service and 4stars for food. :)       After the wonderful meal, we took our time and strolled to Cineleisure and baby took me to K-Box and we had a 4-hours session of singing. Singing ended at about 7p.m.+ and baby say she is gonna bring me to the last place for my last gift of my birthday, she told me the place is at P.S but wouldn't want to let me know where or what she is gonna do or buy. I kept pester her for clue and finally i guessed it when we are nearby 313, she was planning to buy me an iPhone!!! Of course i wouldn't want her to spend so much to get me a phone which cost $500+. I insisted that she shouldn't buy me a phone because she had spent quite a lot on that day for me. We went to 313 and walk around instead. At about 9p.m.+ we went home and that's it for my birthday. Thanks baby for a wonderful day, you don't need to buy me expensive gifts to please me, just stay by my side and love me would be the best present.... i love you. on 24th, went to Claudia's 21st birthday party with Juan and her friends.  28th, had our marketing presentation, i don't think i perform well that day but we did manage to score A for that presentation thanks to Kevin's wonderful written report. Went New-York New-York with the class at City-link to have our dinner after that.  February On 10th, had reunion dinner with my family as bro and sis were going back to Malaysia for CNY. On 14th, which is CNY day 1 and Vday, met Juan, June and Auntie Janet at Lot 1 for movie after their CNY visits. We watched True Legend, quite a interesting show lah, story line very normal but a lot of fighting scenes. On 15th, went to baby's auntie's place for dinner and played some MJ with baby's cousin, auntie and mum. On 16th, met Kirk, Eric and Eric's new GF Tiffany for dinner at 167. Had a nice catch up with them. :) On 18th and 19th, had my first 2 paper which is Business Excel and Java respectively. Met baby on 19th after my paper ended at 7.30p.m. and went over to Vivocity to buy our iPhones. Waited 2hours for our turn and we are the last customer to leave the shop..LOL! We bought 32GB black iPhones, baby trade-in her E71 for $200 and with a $50 voucher and the net payable price is $418. I had a $100 voucher but no trade-in, so my net payable is $568, but i had sold my iPod Touch to baby's sister for $150, so the net payable for me is the same as baby, $418. We bought gar-skins for our phone on istyles.com too. Our's  Baby's  Mine  Gonna have one more paper on 2nd march before my vacation start and i should go and study for my statistics now....Will update soon... CIAOS |
Leon Chok Zhi Quan 
24 as from 13 January 2009 I'm a Capricorn Attached to Ms. Foo Yi Juan Studying at Singapore Polytechnic 
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